My day started off by reading this email….
I would never consider asking this if I weren’t pretty sure, but I saw you walking by, did I see a baby bump??
I read the words and I felt like I was punched in the stomach. This was from a girl who works at the same company as I do and the only reason I know who she is, is because we have a mutual acquaintance.
What even gives her the right to ask that question. I sat at my desk with tears stinging my eyes wondering how I should respond to her. I barely know this girl does she deserve to know “my story.” I have to say something to her even though what I want to say is mean but really she made me feel bad why shouldn’t I make her feel bad for asking me such a personal question. I took the high road because I’m too nice of a person to be mean. I summed up the last 4 years of heartache into 2 sentences. I told her I wasn’t pregnant and that I’d been going through fertility treatment the last 2 months with no success and then I hit the send button. She responded back but didn’t apologize instead she told me how she’s a fertile myrtle and how she had no problems conceiving her children and maybe I should consider adoption and then ended the email asking if I wanted to do lunch sometime. I know deep down she wasn’t trying to be mean but her words hurt. I’ve really been struggling these last few weeks. I feel like just when I get 2 steps ahead and start feeling good something happens that pushes me back down. I just wish some people weren’t so clueless, she’ll never know it but this girl certainly turned my good day into a crappy one.
Thanks for letting me share-